So many thoughts clouding my mind right now and I don’t know what this feeling is. However, I must say that I am blessed. Blessed beyond words. On this rainy Friday night, I am definitely feeling God’s presence and it’s been awhile since I felt this way. Finally able to accept my BK results, although it pains me so much every now and then. I know people say that SPM results will come to mean nothing in time, but this subject is something that is close to my heart. I believe this is what I deserve though, and I regret so much because I know I could have done it. I’m sorry, God. I’m sorry for only giving You my best 1.5 years late. What’s worse is that I could not be grateful enough for my other results, that I could not thank You wholeheartedly like I should have. You’ve given me more than enough, the financial help I needed, and yes, what I deserve. Thank You.
Words cannot express how grateful and blessed I am for the friends i have around me. The support, the encouragement, the visits, the random + enjoyable conversations and the help- it’s just amazing. The things my friends do or say to me sometimes :’) Blessed to have my younger brother as well, my major source of joy, motivation and entertainment. This week, I am especially grateful for rekindled friendships (it’s been awhile, old buddies!) and new friends that i can click with. Though there is disappointment sometimes, I know it’s part of life and of course, no one is perfect.
Something hit me today- Never underestimate the power of prayer. It was such a great reminder, something I needed after being so caught up in my own thoughts. And being prayed over by someone else, is truly amazing! Blessed and thankful for something so unexpected! I’ve always been so terrified because i have no clue on what to do in the future, and when I say no clue, I really mean it. (I’ve only ruled out engineering) But today, I have hope, hope that God will reveal his answer to me soon. I have hope that a miracle will happen somehow. Life’s gonna get tougher and crazier, and I’m relying on Your strength! Thank You for showing me how real You are, God.
Sigh, so glad to be back in my second home. *contented*